ooppps, i did it again

Welp.

That’s my favorite word now.

Welp.

I did it again. I pushed somebody away because I didn’t want to get hurt. Because I wanted something else. I didn’t even think about our friendship, I just decided based on what I am currently feeling. I tend to do this now. Push people away. I think this is easier than getting hurt. Well, I still get hurt either way, this is just an easier way out.

He’s completely ignoring me. I mean, I can’t really blame him right? But can he blame me for feeling this way? Funny, I can hear his voice arguing with me. This is lame. Oh well, this is what I get for acting all stupid.

I won’t be friends with guys anymore – guys that I can possibly like or is remotely interested to. This friendzoned shit has to stop and I have to do something about it. 

And I am starting now.