If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you’ve not been alone much or If when you were, you weren’t OK with it, then just wait. you’ll find its fine to be alone once you’re embracing it.
One of my good friends sent me this video. I love/hate my friends sometimes, they always know when I am feeling down or if I am going through stuff. I consider myself lucky. 🙂
After watching the video, I realized that yes, I have never been alone this past year. Was with a guy for a long time, broke up, got close with another guy, that didn’t work out, got with the ex again and then that ended. I didn’t think I can be alone. I’ve always been in a “couple” so I forgot how to be by myself. I would feel sad if nobody would talk to me, not just with guys but even with my friends. Being alone made it seem like nobody likes to hangout with me, I am so worried of what other people will think or is thinking. And I’ve learned that that’s not the case.
The past few months were definitely hard for me, emotionally, but I am coping. And I am slowly learning to love being alone. I get to write, read books and watch shows. I didn’t need constant assurance from my friends, I don’t feel bad if I miss any night out planned. I am slowly finding myself again. And of course, I still feel sad, and the constant longing of somebody’s attention, but I believe in baby steps. I know I will get through this and whoever I meet in the future, it’ll be worth the wait. 🙂