I guess it does still bother me. But that doesn’t mean that I am going to do anything about it. I will just let you do your thing, that’s what people do right? I can’t demand anything from you, at least I feel that I shouldn’t since I am independent and I have my own decisions to make. But I don’t know, I feel sometimes that you don’t need me. That you’ll be fine even though we don’t talk, even though you don’t hear from me. Or is that security? Secured that we don’t have to talk to each other all the time and it’s all good. Dammit. Could be.

I am still new at this. Maybe I just miss you. Yeah, that’s it. I miss you.