Time to Move!

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This is what our apartment looks like – empty walls, empty shelves and pile of boxes on the side. We are trying to box up all the things we’ve accumulated during our 1 year and 6 months of marriage. It wasn’t as bad as I expected. Robert is a pro in moving so he knew what to do and the stuff we need. I, on the other hand, doesn’t like moving. I moved from San Antonio to Austin but with the stuff I have, it didn’t require boxes. A few luggage bags, I am good.

We have another 10 empty boxes to use. We still have the kitchen to pack, we packed most of the stuff that we don’t use, but we kept a few plates and mugs to use. Pots and pans too and his coffee maker. We haven’t even started on the bathroom and our bedroom, but those are just towels and small stuff so we can pack that the last day before our move. Oh and clothes too. The list goes on.

This is a lot of work but we are both excited on what’s gonna happen on this next chapter of our lives. We recently purchased a house and if this goes through with no more hiccups, we officially move in 2 weeks. Heck yes. This whole process of looking for a house is such an experience. I might write a blog post about it once we’ve settled and emptied each single box. We’ve learned a lot especially since we were both new homeowners. So many things to consider and plan but it is all worth it once done. House buying is way up there in the list of #adulting.

So yeah, there’s gonna be more packing during the next few days. It’s tiring but worth it. We can’t wait until this move is over and we can finally settle in the house and make it our home. 🙂

Prayer

R: I prayed for you today

M: You did? *getting teary-eyed*

R: Yeah I did. Right after you texted me. I prayed that you be calm at your meeting and that it’ll all be ok.

M: *ugly crying*

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December 2016 yung huling post ko tungkol sa Endometrial Polyp at ung nangyari sa surgery ko. March 2017 na, ang dami nang nangyari.

Matapos ang surgery ko, nalaman ng OB ko na may Acute Hyperplasia ako. Pero para daw makasigurado, nirecommend din ng OB ko na magpasecond option, sa isang oncologist. Niresearch ko kung sino ung oncologist, nawindang ako nung nalaman ko na para sa cancer pala ang mga doctor na un. Hindi ako masyadong sakitin nung bata ako kaya family doctor lang ang kilala ko. Tinawagan ko ung doctor at nagpaschedule ng appointment. Mas mahirap magschedule ng appointment sa isang oncologist. May form pa na ifi-fill up, may questionnaires at itatanong kung sinong doctor ang nagrecommend. Siguro kasi hindi lang ito outpatient doctor lang.

Naset ung appointment that December din. Nameet namin ni Robert ung oncologist, inexplain nya kung ano yung current diagnosis ko. May acute hyperplasia daw ako. Yun e dahil sa sobra sobra ung pino-produce na estrogen ng katawan ko. Kaya daw sobra ung pagbe-bleed ko. Usually daw kapag may acute hyperplasia, hysterectomy na ang solution. Pero dahil bata pa daw ako at gusto pang magkaanak, gagamutin. May risk nga lang, Endometrial cancer na ung susunod na stage from acute hyperplasia. So in the future, kailangan ko talagang magpa-hysterectomy.

Natapos ung 30 minute visit, nagschedule ulit ng surgery ung oncologist. Kaya naman 3 days bago magChristmas, nasa ospital na naman ako, bangag sa anesthesia. Parehong result ang nakuha ng OB ko at oncologist, may hyperplasia nga ako. May nireseta na gamot ung doctor, kailangan kong inumin, dalawang beses, araw-araw. Kaya mula December hanggang ngayon, iniinom ko ung gamot.

A week ago, nagpunta ulit ako sa oncologist. After 3 months kasi, kailangang magpacheck up. Same appointment, biniopsy ako. Anak ng tukneneng. Napakasakit. As in di ako makatayo. Buti na lang at andun si Robert, may moral support. Sabi nung doctor, malalaman ko after one week ung result.

Kanina, nakausap ko ung nurse. Grabe ung tuwa ko nung nalaman ko ung balita. Benign. Wala na daw ung hyperplasia cells. Ituloy ko lang inumin ung gamot at after 3 months, doctor visit ulit, biopsy ulit.

Hay, super good news. Sobra sobra ung pasasalamat ko. Hindi na ako magaalala sa ngayon, dahil ok ang lahat.

Trabaho lang

Naalala ko ung sinabi sa akin ng kaibigan ko. “You can’t control what they do or feel Carme, only you can control your feelings and actions.”

Tama nga naman sya. Hindi ko naman maco-control kung ayaw akong kausapin nitong ka-team ko. Hindi ko din naman kontrolado kung kelan nya feel makipaginteract sa akin or kung buong araw kaming di maguusap. Ang kaya ko lang kontrolin ay ang sarili ko at kung paano ko iha-handle ang sitwasyon.

Masyado lang akong nasanay na sa tagal kong nagtatrabaho, sa loob ng 12 years, never pa akong naka-encounter na katrabaho ko na hindi ko nakasundo. Feeling ko ok naman kami, pero paano ko mapapatunayan yan kung di naman kami naguusap. Dadaan ang araw na wala kaming sinasabing kahit ano sa isa’t-isa. Kahit work related na tanong, hindi kami naguusap. Talk about teamwork diba?

Ako lagi ung nauunang kumausap sa kanya. Kapag hindi, eh walang mangyayari. Ako ung tipo ng tao na madaldal. Mahilig magcollaborate. Mahilig makipagkwentuhan. Kaya sobrang naninibago ako.

Naisip ko din naman na baka ako ung problema. Baka may nagawa ako kaya hindi nya ako kinakausap. Sabay kami halos nagstart dito sa trabaho, kaya halos pareho kami ng task. Nung una naman, naguusap kami pero pagtagal, wala na. Baka nga may nagawa ako. Gusto ko syang tanungin pero paano kung mali ang hinala ko? Eh di naglabas ako ng conflict o drama sa trabaho kahit wala naman.

Eh paano kung tama ang hinala ko? Paano kung inis o may galit sya sa akin? Paano ko iha-handle yan? Syempre magsosorry ako pero magiging awkward na sa trabaho. Ayoko naman ng ganun.

Hay, oh well. Tahimik na lang siguro Mimay. Gusto ko naman itong ginagawa ko. So, ko-kontrolin ko na lang ung sarili ko. Kebs na lang. Basta trabaho lang.